Here I am sitting in my new favourite spot in town – Orchard Gateway’s library to be exact. Bet you were guessing which fanciful cafe is it this time round huh ha ha the missy is currently kinda….broke. So I was battling the sleep and food coma monster coz I came here straight after lunch and then my mind started to wander. Wander to things that happened in the previous year. Doesnt seem quite far back. We made the mark just five days ago. So I decided to type about whatever that cames to my mind, whatever that helps to keep me awake.
It was yet another lazy new year whereby resolutions came and went and I no longer bothered to pen them down (Go, you greengirl!). Many have said that it’s pointless to make NY resolutions. Mehehheh I couldn’t agree more with that. So I shouldn’t remind myself of how I digressed from the plans I made for myself. As of now, I can’t really think of anything to substantiate on statements like ‘ohhh 2014 had been full of ups and downs’ etc. In fact, I can’t really recall if anything bad had happened. I’m sure something had, but I’m thankful for a brain that keeps these negative thoughts away. Hopefully those memory triggers would slowly lose it’s power in bringing those nightmares back.
To be honest, I personally feel that I might be the most boring soul alive. I had some serious conversation w Henry (my yocher) and he pointed out that there’s this boring guy (Andrew….what’s his name again?) alive in this world who eatsleepyogatravel his entire life. I might be some junior apprentice to that, just that I dont travel due to transportation phobe and I’m just lacking centuries worth of cultivated peace behind this master yogi. So back to my point, all I could recall about 2014 is that I reported to my mat diligently. I did a bit of calculation and realised that I clocked in 107hrs of practice and if I were to track it via an hour a day, that would the equivalence of spending almost a third of my year on the mat lol what a daunting thought. BUT numbers are just….numbers. They don’t signify anything. I could practice 365days a year and dont show improvement at all! Okay maybe I will LOL. All I can say is I’m proud of my improvement. It’s the things which were deemed to be impossible to achieve but I somehow managed to, that subtly remind me that my practice isn’t stagnant. Yay.
Also, the year wouldnt pass without exams taking place..YEAR2 flashed by literally and sometimes I doubt that it happened coz I cant really remember a single shit from there. Okay if I were to name something….Demand characteristics? Yikes psyc. I’m now halfway through Y3 and soon, BAM. Exams would be over already. And the thought of going for an Audit paper can alrdy easily scare the shit out of me. But yeah I know I’ll be able to manage somehow. What’s the point in worrying. With regards to my plans after graduation…I’m sorry. 现在我的前途还是一片摸黑. Maybe I alrdy know what I wanna do, but it’s just that I’m not brave enough to face that thought at the moment. KIV till then~
This also marks the 6th year to my singlehood ever since I made a really foolish decision. Nothing much to comment on that. The past is nothing but something that reminds you of how stupid you were lol. Attempts to get out of this shit hole were made but to no avail. My friend might be right. I’m independent. Overly independent. No sympathy is required.
Okay I’m gonna be a spoiler and return to getting some work done. If you still wanna know what my resolutions are, I only wanna freaking fix my broken violin LATER.